What if I walked away
What would you really say
Would it matter any way
Would it change how you feel
I am the mess you chose
A closet you can not close
The devil in you I suppose
Cuz the wounds never heal
Sep 21st I am overjoyed
He paused and gazed into my eyes. Words unspoken, the look in his eyes said enough. And I, I was lost into the beauty of his gaze, lost entirely in him.
He took my hand and slipped his fingers inside the little spaces between mine. And I felt a rush across my entire body, the kind of rush that causes the little hairs on your skin to rise.
I felt my heartbeats beginning to accelerate. My body slowly drawing itself closer towards him. His scent and perfume filled my air He finally held me in his arms. And I instantly drowned in the warmth of his embrace.
I am missed. I can feel his longing and yearning. I know what feelings dwell behind his sighs, his unbreakable smile, his sweet shy giggles. It is love.
How blessed, how fortunate am I ? I was thrilled he’s back, but he assured me he was never gone, he will never be.
Flowers blossomed in my heart.
The kind of sadness that weakens your entire body and makes it a stuggle to stand on your feet. You carry yourself heavily and slowely feeling drugged and helpless
An elephant is sitting on ur lungs and there’s like a knife in ur throat. You want to throw up and you feel like your eyes are popping back and forth in ur skull like pingpongs yu just want it to fuckin stop
Sometimes I stop myself for a second and feel my heartbeat running fucking crazy and I wonder why?
Then I try to take in a deep breath but when I let it out my eyes start tearing
And I also wonder why?
Then I take a moment and think and then all I can think of is how much I need him to hold me..
He might never hold me ever again :(
My time of the month
Well I’m pmsing, literally.
My mind and heart had been in a conflict.
I’m starting to get sick of myself and my ways
I’m obnoxious. I despise my self. I believe I can be a better person and that I deserve better things in life.
I dislike my relationship with a few people, and I’d like to fix it, specially with my mom.
I have plenty of fears that I’m unwilling to face.
I have a few bad habits, drinking, smoking, not sleeping right…
I’ ve got only a little knowledge of the religion I was born into
I’m illiterate in politics, basically because I think its better that way, but really I need to know what’s going on around the world.
I got talents that I don’t explore, singing, drawing, painting, and writing
I have a few short term goals, but no big ones
I don’t read a lot of books and that’s very sad
I don’t keep a lot of friends for long inside my life
I’m a lazyass I don’t play any sports or do any exercise
And my love life is a fuckin rollercoaster
My period is irregular, I don’t take my pills on time
Everythiiing is GONNA have to CHANGE!
Little One, it is not, has never been, and never will be your job to “keep him interested.
That’s double 11
That’s 2x11or 11x2
The word double sounds funny
I keep thinking in stewies accent
Anyway 5 months, 22 weeks!! WHERE HAVE yOU BEEN ALL MY LIFE?!
Is it double the time only or is it also double the love?
We’ve never celebrated an anniversary and I do think months are stupid but it seems like a nice idea. I’ll wear a dress. He’ll get me a red flower. We’ll drink wine maybe and for the first time ever maybe I’ll order a salad.
It looks nice in my imagination
Thanks for saving me
You saved me first
I’ll save yu again
And I’ll save yu again
I’m soo fluffy and bubbly and I looooove him